I don't know if i want to be a christian anymore?

by rickroo Mon Aug 19, 2013 10:07 am

I have been a christian my whole life and im a leader in my church. Porn is something that i have always been against but recently i started watching it. When i first started watching it i felt very guilty and told myself i wouldn't do it again but i couldn't control myself. Also i would only watch lesbian porn. As a christian i have always thought homosexuality is a sin and have opposed gay marriage. So i felt hypocritical that i deny 2 women the right to get married but then go home and masturbate too 2 women having sex.

I have come to the realization that i have no right to oppose gay marriage because just because i believe something doesn't mean i should push my beliefs on other people. My support of gay marriage led me to question my faith and i have realized that there are a lot of things in the church that i don't agree with and is honestly its something i don't want to be a part of.

I am now conflicted because i want to stay part of the church because its a huge part of my life and all my friends and family are there. Although that is the only thing keeping me there. I am also interested in satanism, but don't know much about it to be honest.

Any input or thoughts would be much appreciated, thanks.

by Dr. Morguen Wed Aug 20, 2014 10:22 pm

In the Satanic Bible by Dr. Lavey it is written: “Flesh (our human nature) will always prevail”.
This is happening to you and you are not alone. Most “righteous” religion persons have double lives because nature cannot be denied. That explains child abuse and others.
You are Guilty because of your mental conditioning that plays a major role in religion. To make you feel like a scum. That is how it works. For thousands of years the master Cheaters had design a very clever but perverse system to control others. In this case trough religion.
I cannot tell you if you need to change your religion. The thing is: Do not let one hand cup and get another.
Be free Enjoy your true nature.
You like porn…Well..What is the problem? Better watching sex movies than violence.
But be careful. You don’t’ want your partners (the Boss) or other´s catch you. Be discreet.
My advice is: READ THE SATANIC BIBLE. By Anton Szandor Lavey. Meditate on what is written. In Satanism there are no Dogmas. At the end is your personal experience. But Lavey´s works will help you very much.
Stop being a salve and be free. Live…….
Please I ask your tolerance for any grammar errors. I am writing in a foreign language for me.
Wish You Well and HAIL SATAN……….
Morguen.

I don't know if i want to be a christian anymore?

I don't know if i want to be a christian anymore?

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